My mother-in-law asked me last week if I can “eat normally again now?” now I am at my target weight. Depends what your definition of normal is, I guess. My old normal, no, never again unless I want to be essentially spherical again. How I eat now is “normal”.
Watched secret eaters for the first time randomly a couple of weeks ago. My husband couldn’t understand how you can’t notice what you’re eating. I totally identified with it, I used to be that secret eater.
I also used to smoke & it’s a similar mindset. Everyone knows that smoking is bad for you, but it doesn’t stop you taking the cigarette out of the packet, putting it in your mouth & setting fire to it.
Crisps, chocolate, butter, peanut butter, alcohol, you know that too much isn’t good for you, but there’s always “tomorrow” to change your ways. And today I need that huge bag of kettle chips & box of Lindor (my drugs of choice).
But, like smoking, eating like that takes it’s toll, and you have to give it up.
Because I am a secret eater, a cheater, a denier I needed to go to a group, I chose Slimming World, and it’s worked. I lost 4 stone.
That’s not the end of the story though, 6 months down the line I still go to weigh-in & stay for the group bit, because it’s like AA for alcoholics, a constant check & guide, & even then I have been slipping recently, so back to food diaries & thinking about what I’m eating. For without Mad-eye Moody’s “Constant Vigilance” I can easily return to my secret eater ways.
